Self-evaluation, Quantum

Chris Kawecki
Self Evaluation
Myrquantum
Spring 1993

	I entered Quantum physics (a little late due primarily to
indecision regarding a scheduling conflict) with somewhat vague,
but still identifiable goals: to see if I would believe quantum
mechanics after a less prescursory look than I had had, to see
why Herb was so excited about the subject, and to see if I might
not also find it exciting.
	The results of those initial questions are: no, I do not
believe quantum theory as it was presented; though I have no
doubt the math works, I am convinced we are still to find out
why (at least I will call it why; others may call the quantum
mechanics the why for the classical explanation- but if we do
not define "why" classically then I think we are making an
unnecessary secrifice), and it will make classical sence; I do
not know for sure why Herb enjoys it so much; and if I am set on
a search for truth this lifetime perhaps I will also find myself
in quantum mechanics. If I do, I hope I will be having as much
fun as Herb does.
	Of course, that's not what they mean by a self-evaluation.
Beyond what I initially expected to learn, I also got a powerful
introduction to linear algebra. It would be a lie for me to say
that I did all the homework as best I could; but equally, it
would be a lie if I said I did not play around with the math
some on my own in addition to the homework. I feel that this
class has been a positive experience, and have no doubt that the
thinking I did will contribute to future experience, in life and
perhaps also in the crazy quest for quanta. Who knows, perhaps
one day those will be for me the same quest.